Tomorrow morning I’ll be running the NYRR Colon Cancer Challenge 15k. This will be my third time running the race, which takes place in Central Park–it’s a combination of two different loops of the park, so it covers the some of the same areas twice, and since I normally run in the park, I won’t be exploring any new territory. I like the race, though, for a few reasons: 1) I enjoy racing longer distances; 2) I like races that benefit a cause; 3) it doesn’t start until 11:15 so I have time to wake up and have a decent breakfast and get hydrated before heading out.
Last year, my time was 1:21:37, which gave me an average pace of 8:45/mile. I was in good shape at that point, and it was right before I dropped off the running radar for a while. I’ve thought a lot about whether I want to go into the race tomorrow and try to PR. I still haven’t made up my mind.
Generally, I think runners put a lot of thought into their races and come up with A, B, and C times, think a lot about their splits, and taper before going into the event. I haven’t done any of those things for this race, and with the exception of marathons or half-marathons, I usually don’t really even pay attention to tapering. More often than not, I don’t even really mention to anyone that I’m racing. I’m scared to. It’s related to my fears of both failure and success–making a bit deal out of it means that I’ve gotten excited, and getting excited means that the failure will just be harder to take.
Some day, I will be able to proudly declare that I have a race coming up, that I want to run the course in a certain time, or that I have a few different goal times I am considering. I’ll prepare more carefully, and put more effort into the entire process. I won’t try to throw it from the beginning just so that I can later say that it was because I never really meant to put effort into it in the first place. Hopefully, that day will come sooner rather than later. I think I can do it; I’ve made a lot of positive changes recently, and I want this one to be one of the next on the list.
On that note, I’ll try taking a step in the right direction by saying this: I do want to PR tomorrow. Now that it’s out there, I can’t take it back! This means I could fail. I guess that’s something I’ll have to deal with.
Embrace:Me 30-day challenge, day 21: Fuel, fuel, fuel! In order to get ready for tomorrow’s race, I’ve taken special care to eat enough today. Weekends can be especially hard for me in the ol’ eating department, I’m always tempted to skip lunch. But I made sure to stick to my meals today. Of course, this is something I should be doing regardless of whether I’m racing or not!