I haven’t been running yet, and there are still a couple hours of daylight left, so posting my Sunday run-down at 5:30 seems almost preemptive. But guess what? I’ve been inside all day feeling sick to my stomach (and crying about feeling sick to my stomach). I don’t really think the four miles I had planned today are going to happen. I don’t even think I could manage two miles. I’ve also considered trying yoga, but I don’t think that will be happening either. I had a really productive day planned, actually. Nausea and crying were not on the agenda, but they’re the only things I’ve been able to accomplish.
As far as my stomach is concerned, here is what I am pretty sure about: it’s stress-related, and it’s probably IBS. So if you have any advice on managing IBS, I’m all ears. And desperate. It’s at the point where if someone said, “You will be able to get rid of your IBS symptoms if you go on a high raw diet“, I’d do it. I can’t take any more of these days where I feel so bad that I don’t want to leave the house. It really, really takes a toll on quality of life after a while.
On a brighter note, let’s move on to the running.
Monday: Rest day
Tuesday: 4.25 miles of hills
Wednesday: 7.36 miles
Saturday: 9.2 mile long run
Total mileage: 20.82 miles
That’s a good total, but I’m unhappy about it. It’s amazing just how much being sick can bring you down. I feel bad about Embrace:Me, my blog, my mileage, the fact that I didn’t do any yoga this week, my body, how unhappy I am with so many things in my life (and the fact that I’m terrified that I won’t be able to find a way to deal with all those things)…you name it, I feel bad about it. I can’t think of something nice to do for myself. And the worst part is that I know all this negativity is just making my stomach feel worse. Maybe a run would actually end up helping for that reason. I don’t know.
[Updated: I just got back from a four-mile run. My stomach felt fine the entire time. Now that I’m back at home, the nausea is back. Obviously this means I just need to run all the time, and never stop. Like Forrest Gump.]
Embrace:Me 30-day Challenge day 15: I guess the best thing I could possible do for myself right now is just give myself a break. I may grab my ipod and take a walk. It won’t be a run, but it might at least help a bit to get moving and out for some fresh air. I definitely need to turn this beat around one way or another.