You might not know it from reading this blog, but I try to remain sort of upbeat when it comes to content. Surprised? I probably would be, given the fact that looking back, I feel like most of what I write is whiny and negative. Sorry. I know that can’t be any fun to read.
Anyway, I also feel like my posting has been a little erratic lately. I’ve actually been going through a rather rough depression. Some of you may be wondering how this is different from my usual rose-colored glasses self. Well, maybe it’s not much different. Maybe I’m in a perpetual state of depression. I don’t know. At any rate, I just know that last week was pretty unpleasant and extremely unproductive, which means this week needs to be better. Of course, as I write this, I’m feeling sort of blue and trying to figure out how I’m ever going to get up the courage to go running again.
My goal is, really, to make this week a better one than the last, which means eating well (I sort of fell off the wagon last week, having left town. I didn’t do poorly, but I didn’t do as well as I would have liked–fewer veggies and fruits, more stuff I don’t normally eat, like Chinese take-out with lots of white rice), getting back to training for the triathlon, and trying to maintain a positive attitude.
What I really feel like saying is I feel like every other week I am writing (or stating in one form or another), “Oh, I need to start over; last week/yesterday/last month/whatever period of time was bad, and I am hoping this upcoming [period of time] will be better.” And I kind of feel like every time I try to make things better, I fail. Or it doesn’t really last. And then I think, at one point do I just give up? I honestly don’t know. I guess that means that that point hasn’t come yet. Anyway, here’s to a better week.